Okay I started a new blog...
www.coriandkids.blogspot.com
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
05-09-12
Well this is going to be my last update on this blog. I will probably shut it down this weekend. It has been an awesome tool in communicating with friends and family with updates on our lives. But like I have said in about 50 other posts long ago, I really value my privacy. This was truly an exercise in sharing and expressing myself. It was an incredible outlet in which to share a very intimate and difficult part of my life. I found it scary and therapeutic :-) But this blog was also about our journey as a family through leukemia. And that journey sadly came to an end.
Cancer is scary and sad. It definitely has influenced me as a human being and obviously affected my life and that of my children's. I'm tired of it, and so are my kids. We practice moving forward each day in our lives. I pray and hope for miracles each day, that some way, someone will find a way of curing cancer, in all forms and for everyone. At this time in our lives we are choosing to walk away from Cancer, and working on not letting it consume our lives. Part of that is letting this blog go.
So I'm going old school! I deactivated my facebook account and deactivating the blog. Please feel free to shoot me an email, text or give us a call :-) I'd be happy to talk and visit. I miss the intimacy of real relationships, and really don't need the world knowing and being part of my life. Plus we are just stinking boring, who wants to hear about that! And boring is just the way we like it!
Sweet friends, family, neighbors, everyone who has loved, prayed and supported not only myself, but my children, WE LOVE YOU!!!!! And thank you so very much!!!! Truly, THANK YOU!!!!
Lots of Love....
Cori
Cancer is scary and sad. It definitely has influenced me as a human being and obviously affected my life and that of my children's. I'm tired of it, and so are my kids. We practice moving forward each day in our lives. I pray and hope for miracles each day, that some way, someone will find a way of curing cancer, in all forms and for everyone. At this time in our lives we are choosing to walk away from Cancer, and working on not letting it consume our lives. Part of that is letting this blog go.
So I'm going old school! I deactivated my facebook account and deactivating the blog. Please feel free to shoot me an email, text or give us a call :-) I'd be happy to talk and visit. I miss the intimacy of real relationships, and really don't need the world knowing and being part of my life. Plus we are just stinking boring, who wants to hear about that! And boring is just the way we like it!
Sweet friends, family, neighbors, everyone who has loved, prayed and supported not only myself, but my children, WE LOVE YOU!!!!! And thank you so very much!!!! Truly, THANK YOU!!!!
Lots of Love....
Cori
Friday, April 20, 2012
04-20-12
Well I had to update real quick...
I PASSED MY FAMILY NURSE PRACTITIONER BOARDS!!! WOO HOO!!! In a couple of weeks I will be offically licensed in the grand State of Utah as a C-FNP!!! So very happy and excited. A super, super long road full of all kinds of changes in my life.
Quick update on kidlets...they are all monsters and keep me hopping. But really that is no change ;-)
I'm not planning on leaving my current place of employment. I enjoy what I do. And hopefully we will see how my position evolves. Southwest Center has been so amazing to not only myself, but my family. I wouldn't have been able to finish school without their support, and currently I wouldn't know what to do without all of their skills, love, and support emotionally! Seriously again...I have access to mental health therapists! I think they give me a job to keep from dealing with me as a client ;-) ha ha ha!!!
Still ABSOLUTELY loving Parowan! My soul is at peace! I love living and growing each day there. I LOVE my cupcake cottage, and I'm so excited for changes that are coming! If I can just stick to a plan! I just want to do so much, all at once!
Peace, peace, peace....just loving the peace in my life :-) Of course I always have plenty to complain about...but the main theme is just growing, stretching, changing, evolving peace :-)
Well lots of love...
Cori
I PASSED MY FAMILY NURSE PRACTITIONER BOARDS!!! WOO HOO!!! In a couple of weeks I will be offically licensed in the grand State of Utah as a C-FNP!!! So very happy and excited. A super, super long road full of all kinds of changes in my life.
Quick update on kidlets...they are all monsters and keep me hopping. But really that is no change ;-)
I'm not planning on leaving my current place of employment. I enjoy what I do. And hopefully we will see how my position evolves. Southwest Center has been so amazing to not only myself, but my family. I wouldn't have been able to finish school without their support, and currently I wouldn't know what to do without all of their skills, love, and support emotionally! Seriously again...I have access to mental health therapists! I think they give me a job to keep from dealing with me as a client ;-) ha ha ha!!!
Still ABSOLUTELY loving Parowan! My soul is at peace! I love living and growing each day there. I LOVE my cupcake cottage, and I'm so excited for changes that are coming! If I can just stick to a plan! I just want to do so much, all at once!
Peace, peace, peace....just loving the peace in my life :-) Of course I always have plenty to complain about...but the main theme is just growing, stretching, changing, evolving peace :-)
Well lots of love...
Cori
Thursday, March 22, 2012
03-22-12
This proves my love for my Aunt Rexann! Hee hee hee ;-)
It has been a month since I posted on "the Blog". I think I might have to come up with another blog.."The adventures and mishaps of Cori Saville". I think it will be pretty epic ;-)
Well, first things first. The house is officially sold. On 03/09/12 (Harrison's B-Day) I sold/closed on our home in Washington Fields. I wish I could say I was emotional and sad at the selling. I felt a great release, and pressure off of my shoulders. Of course I miss my neighborhood and my ward. Sadly that house held memories of my sick husband. We of course had wonderful memories there as well. But the pressure and stress of it was just too much.
I'm now waiting for the selling of my house to be off of my credit (doing a rapid re score), so that I may close on my little house in Parowan. I JUST LOVE IT!!!! Can I just share my joy and absolute rapture I feel in living in this house!!! The peace and contentment that I feel everyday is incredible. A dream I have imagined for so long has come true!!! Over the last several years I was starting to think that I was cursed! How dare I dream a dream and dare it to come true! Of course this little house needs some work. It is part of my joy, and happiness! I LOVE YARD! I just stare out at it and imagine my future horse and stable. I imagine my little deck, and my future garden. Happy, happy thoughts!!!
Meanwhile...I swear I hear Jeremie laughing at me! I know what he would say! I know he would be saying "uh...your weird!". It makes me laugh harder to imagine what he would think and say! But he knew I always wanted this. He had to drive me up there for the last several years (yes he was humoring me) and hear my babbling about how I will live in Parowan someday. Even if I buy a little house all by myself, and come up on the weekends and we just have Thanksgiving and Christmas there! Ha Ha Ha!!!
The kids have started school. And so far so good! Phoenix & Jeremie's favorite part is the FOOD! They said it is the best school lunch food they have ever had! Jeremie went to Brian Head today to go skiing with his class (first time ever, think he will love skiing like his dad, or a boob and hate it like his mom?). Harrison loves all the girls (of course) and Scarlett is quite taken with the "Cowboys". Don't ask them about academics! Parowan is such a different feel for us, it feels pretty good. Of course we are all still adjusting. It has been such a crazy couple of years for us, I keep waiting for a meltdown to occur.
I'm commuting to St. George, and I'm enjoying my hour ride to work listening to my review tapes (take my licensing and board exam 04/16/12), and coming home I enjoy my hour by myself to center and relax. I feel that I have found something I've been searching for. It is hard to describe, my peace and contentment. Frankly its weird for me too! I'm a busy body, but I'm liking the slower and simpler life. Although really, can I say slower with all these kids coming out my ears! ;-) ha ha ha!!!
Of course everyday is still an adventure in single-parenthood...I don't love that everyday. I picked out 12 BB pellets from the garbage disposal last night! Grrr...and retraining my children in my OCD-we-all-share-one-bathroom-ways is so much fun too! But at the same time, adjusting and learning and loving. We all have to learn that change constantly happens, so we can be pleasant and flexible or mean and grouchy! Okay, sometimes I'm mean and grouchy!!! ;-)
I'm looking forward to spring and playing in my yard. I plan on being outside EVERYDAY! What are my kids going to do...they will actually be able to play outside during the summer! WEIRD! Ha Ha Ha!!! Even now, it is hard to keep us in.
I've been so excited to run in Parowan (haven't been able to run in 3-4 weeks!). I'm a night runner. I just can't do it in the morning. I have to have my full day of food in my body and everything done, then I get the urge to go run. Last night I was not disappointed. It was so beautiful! The stars so bright, the air so fresh! It felt amazing. Although I forgot I'm at a higher altitude, so my endurance is definitely off. But it's okay, I will get it back. There are these beautiful canyons, and once I have built up a bit more strength, I will run through them. I'm so excited to run through! It takes my breath away how beautiful it is in Parowan. And something about running through those mountains and hills just leaves me feeling alive.
Well...maybe I need to come up with a different blogging spot...it might make me feel less weird about posting. And I should get in a better habit too of writing...although, really I plan on my life being incredibly boring!!!
Lots of Love...
Cori
It has been a month since I posted on "the Blog". I think I might have to come up with another blog.."The adventures and mishaps of Cori Saville". I think it will be pretty epic ;-)
Well, first things first. The house is officially sold. On 03/09/12 (Harrison's B-Day) I sold/closed on our home in Washington Fields. I wish I could say I was emotional and sad at the selling. I felt a great release, and pressure off of my shoulders. Of course I miss my neighborhood and my ward. Sadly that house held memories of my sick husband. We of course had wonderful memories there as well. But the pressure and stress of it was just too much.
I'm now waiting for the selling of my house to be off of my credit (doing a rapid re score), so that I may close on my little house in Parowan. I JUST LOVE IT!!!! Can I just share my joy and absolute rapture I feel in living in this house!!! The peace and contentment that I feel everyday is incredible. A dream I have imagined for so long has come true!!! Over the last several years I was starting to think that I was cursed! How dare I dream a dream and dare it to come true! Of course this little house needs some work. It is part of my joy, and happiness! I LOVE YARD! I just stare out at it and imagine my future horse and stable. I imagine my little deck, and my future garden. Happy, happy thoughts!!!
Meanwhile...I swear I hear Jeremie laughing at me! I know what he would say! I know he would be saying "uh...your weird!". It makes me laugh harder to imagine what he would think and say! But he knew I always wanted this. He had to drive me up there for the last several years (yes he was humoring me) and hear my babbling about how I will live in Parowan someday. Even if I buy a little house all by myself, and come up on the weekends and we just have Thanksgiving and Christmas there! Ha Ha Ha!!!
The kids have started school. And so far so good! Phoenix & Jeremie's favorite part is the FOOD! They said it is the best school lunch food they have ever had! Jeremie went to Brian Head today to go skiing with his class (first time ever, think he will love skiing like his dad, or a boob and hate it like his mom?). Harrison loves all the girls (of course) and Scarlett is quite taken with the "Cowboys". Don't ask them about academics! Parowan is such a different feel for us, it feels pretty good. Of course we are all still adjusting. It has been such a crazy couple of years for us, I keep waiting for a meltdown to occur.
I'm commuting to St. George, and I'm enjoying my hour ride to work listening to my review tapes (take my licensing and board exam 04/16/12), and coming home I enjoy my hour by myself to center and relax. I feel that I have found something I've been searching for. It is hard to describe, my peace and contentment. Frankly its weird for me too! I'm a busy body, but I'm liking the slower and simpler life. Although really, can I say slower with all these kids coming out my ears! ;-) ha ha ha!!!
Of course everyday is still an adventure in single-parenthood...I don't love that everyday. I picked out 12 BB pellets from the garbage disposal last night! Grrr...and retraining my children in my OCD-we-all-share-one-bathroom-ways is so much fun too! But at the same time, adjusting and learning and loving. We all have to learn that change constantly happens, so we can be pleasant and flexible or mean and grouchy! Okay, sometimes I'm mean and grouchy!!! ;-)
I'm looking forward to spring and playing in my yard. I plan on being outside EVERYDAY! What are my kids going to do...they will actually be able to play outside during the summer! WEIRD! Ha Ha Ha!!! Even now, it is hard to keep us in.
I've been so excited to run in Parowan (haven't been able to run in 3-4 weeks!). I'm a night runner. I just can't do it in the morning. I have to have my full day of food in my body and everything done, then I get the urge to go run. Last night I was not disappointed. It was so beautiful! The stars so bright, the air so fresh! It felt amazing. Although I forgot I'm at a higher altitude, so my endurance is definitely off. But it's okay, I will get it back. There are these beautiful canyons, and once I have built up a bit more strength, I will run through them. I'm so excited to run through! It takes my breath away how beautiful it is in Parowan. And something about running through those mountains and hills just leaves me feeling alive.
Well...maybe I need to come up with a different blogging spot...it might make me feel less weird about posting. And I should get in a better habit too of writing...although, really I plan on my life being incredibly boring!!!
Lots of Love...
Cori
Thursday, February 23, 2012
02-23-12
Hmmm...
So I knew these last several weeks were going to be the hard ones. I knew that a year ago. That a year from now, I wouldn't want to remember these moments. I wouldn't want to remember pain, sadness and emptiness. At least I was prepared for it to be terrible. Valentines day last year was marked by an emergency admittance to LDS hospital to start transplant proceedings fast! It was the day I learned I could let go. It was the day Jeremie begged me to let him go. Pain, pain, pain.
Life is surreal...things you never ever thought you would have to endure. Things you never thought you would have to even think about. Things that you thought should never have to happen. They all did. Even now I sit...and my breathe is taken from me...the reality hits. I'm truly alone. I'm not saying that out of pain or sadness, but just as a matter of fact. And it's odd.
It is funny the things that will bring me to my knee's. Getting off of work...my habit for my whole adult life was to call Jeremie. Do you know I still get off of work and reach for my phone? I went to a conference in Vegas this last week. I was sitting there and all of a sudden I panicked...I forgot to call Jeremie! Ha Ha Ha!!! Huh? I don't even have anyone to check in with. It just weirded me out! I haven't done that in 19 months!
The time thing is funny for me too. Yes he died 7 months ago today. But MY Jeremie was taken from me 19 months ago. My healthy, vibrant, pain in the bum, silly, sarcastic, larger than life, creative, passionate, bossy husband has been gone since July 2010. And my favorite time to remember him is when he wasn't sick. Truly he was such a great friend, I miss that most.
I get whiny every now and again. Actually I think I'm just tired. Single parenthood stinks, I don't recommend it EVER. And not only that, it isn't like I got divorced, and my former spouse will take the kids occasionally. I have them all to myself all the time. Yes, this is why I love my bathtub and my locking bedroom door ;-) And then I think they are stuck with me ALL the time too! Poor kids!
I think we are still adjusting okay? Still figuring out how our little family fits together. I'm a different parent. I'm hoping I'm working on being a better one. One thing about loosing your best friend, is learning that life is so short. And really, the small stuff is just small. Of course I need to tell my OCD brain that and get it on board with that program!
I'm SO excited to be moving! I'm so excited to work on this adorable little house we are buying. And I'm so excited to be living how I've always dreamed. Now, I just have to get my brain tuned into this moving again non-sense ;-)
Despite my whining...I'm so thankful for the gifts in my life. I'm surrounded by incredible friends and family. I've loved experiencing new things, that I have never had the chance to experience before. I'm enjoying learning about myself, and learning to stretch and trust myself. And trying so hard not to be afraid. I can do this :-)
Oh and this Valentine's Day rocked! Here is to next year being full of positive memories and experiences...I think we all deserve them :-)
Love to all...
Cori
So I knew these last several weeks were going to be the hard ones. I knew that a year ago. That a year from now, I wouldn't want to remember these moments. I wouldn't want to remember pain, sadness and emptiness. At least I was prepared for it to be terrible. Valentines day last year was marked by an emergency admittance to LDS hospital to start transplant proceedings fast! It was the day I learned I could let go. It was the day Jeremie begged me to let him go. Pain, pain, pain.
Life is surreal...things you never ever thought you would have to endure. Things you never thought you would have to even think about. Things that you thought should never have to happen. They all did. Even now I sit...and my breathe is taken from me...the reality hits. I'm truly alone. I'm not saying that out of pain or sadness, but just as a matter of fact. And it's odd.
It is funny the things that will bring me to my knee's. Getting off of work...my habit for my whole adult life was to call Jeremie. Do you know I still get off of work and reach for my phone? I went to a conference in Vegas this last week. I was sitting there and all of a sudden I panicked...I forgot to call Jeremie! Ha Ha Ha!!! Huh? I don't even have anyone to check in with. It just weirded me out! I haven't done that in 19 months!
The time thing is funny for me too. Yes he died 7 months ago today. But MY Jeremie was taken from me 19 months ago. My healthy, vibrant, pain in the bum, silly, sarcastic, larger than life, creative, passionate, bossy husband has been gone since July 2010. And my favorite time to remember him is when he wasn't sick. Truly he was such a great friend, I miss that most.
I get whiny every now and again. Actually I think I'm just tired. Single parenthood stinks, I don't recommend it EVER. And not only that, it isn't like I got divorced, and my former spouse will take the kids occasionally. I have them all to myself all the time. Yes, this is why I love my bathtub and my locking bedroom door ;-) And then I think they are stuck with me ALL the time too! Poor kids!
I think we are still adjusting okay? Still figuring out how our little family fits together. I'm a different parent. I'm hoping I'm working on being a better one. One thing about loosing your best friend, is learning that life is so short. And really, the small stuff is just small. Of course I need to tell my OCD brain that and get it on board with that program!
I'm SO excited to be moving! I'm so excited to work on this adorable little house we are buying. And I'm so excited to be living how I've always dreamed. Now, I just have to get my brain tuned into this moving again non-sense ;-)
Despite my whining...I'm so thankful for the gifts in my life. I'm surrounded by incredible friends and family. I've loved experiencing new things, that I have never had the chance to experience before. I'm enjoying learning about myself, and learning to stretch and trust myself. And trying so hard not to be afraid. I can do this :-)
Oh and this Valentine's Day rocked! Here is to next year being full of positive memories and experiences...I think we all deserve them :-)
Love to all...
Cori
Thursday, February 2, 2012
02/02/2012
Well it has been another couple of weeks of change. Never stops does it! I'm starting to get a bit more confident in making decisions. Still making a lot of mistakes with those decisions, but nothing too life threatening yet ;-) I definitely have a perfection issue. And I'm working so hard to say to myself that "it doesn't have to be perfect", and my brain is saying "are you insane?"
So the big news! We sold the house! Yup! You heard right! The house was listed officially on 01/24/2012, was shown on 01/25/12, and I had two offers on 01/26/2012 and picked the best offer on 01/27/2012. Can you believe it! Nothing in my life goes this easy! NOTHING! I can't believe this is. So I'm closing on 02/27/2012. I'm hoping to close very soon after on my little baby house in PAROWAN!!!! WE ARE SO EXCITED!!! And yes that is WE.
Let me get a couple of misconceptions out of the way about me, myself and I. I am made up of a family unit consisting of Scarlett, Harrison, Jeremie Jr. and Phoenix. WE talk about how we want to live our lives, and what goals and dreams we want to go for. I have explained to them what mine are, I asked if they wanted to go to Parowan and give this little life a shot...my answer, without hesitation was YES! And, can we do it now?! We had the option of staying in our home until the end of the school year. I asked my family. THEY decided that they are ready now, they want to move as soon as possible.
If they told me they didn't want to move, didn't want to switch schools. I would just be figuring out how to have a second job, or maybe finding a higher paying job. While not ideal, I want what is best and least stressful for my children. They are looking forward to a scaled down, relaxed life full of all kinds of different adventures. I'm so blessed to be surrounded by these amazing people I get to call my children.
Alex is going to be moving out February 3rd :-) I'm very excited for him. He has a new girl fiend he adores and is enjoying working at the shop. I'm nervous as a mother, because he is my son, no matter if he is an adult. So I'm struggling on one hand and doing a dance on the other!
While I'm so excited that dreams and goals I have thought about for so long in my life are actually happening. The daily struggle of figuring everything else is still quite daunting to me. I struggle for sure trying to be a mom all by myself. I struggle with the whole alone thing (that one more than I like to admit). So I think that is why I have taken to doing things I've always wanted to do. I've have found myself with quite a bit of time on my hands. My usual M.O. is to then increase the amount of junk I have on my plate. But I have finally learned that isn't effective and I'm sick of feeling stressed out. I like to exercise, still hate anything having to do with scrap booking (YUCK, would rather die!), I like to clean, but really how much of that can you do ALL the time? So my little house will be my project. And part of my little 2 year plan (yes I have those) is to have a horse! Oh and maybe I will throw a DNP in there sometime too ;-)
Well here is to self-discovery!
Lots of Love,
Cori
So the big news! We sold the house! Yup! You heard right! The house was listed officially on 01/24/2012, was shown on 01/25/12, and I had two offers on 01/26/2012 and picked the best offer on 01/27/2012. Can you believe it! Nothing in my life goes this easy! NOTHING! I can't believe this is. So I'm closing on 02/27/2012. I'm hoping to close very soon after on my little baby house in PAROWAN!!!! WE ARE SO EXCITED!!! And yes that is WE.
Let me get a couple of misconceptions out of the way about me, myself and I. I am made up of a family unit consisting of Scarlett, Harrison, Jeremie Jr. and Phoenix. WE talk about how we want to live our lives, and what goals and dreams we want to go for. I have explained to them what mine are, I asked if they wanted to go to Parowan and give this little life a shot...my answer, without hesitation was YES! And, can we do it now?! We had the option of staying in our home until the end of the school year. I asked my family. THEY decided that they are ready now, they want to move as soon as possible.
If they told me they didn't want to move, didn't want to switch schools. I would just be figuring out how to have a second job, or maybe finding a higher paying job. While not ideal, I want what is best and least stressful for my children. They are looking forward to a scaled down, relaxed life full of all kinds of different adventures. I'm so blessed to be surrounded by these amazing people I get to call my children.
Alex is going to be moving out February 3rd :-) I'm very excited for him. He has a new girl fiend he adores and is enjoying working at the shop. I'm nervous as a mother, because he is my son, no matter if he is an adult. So I'm struggling on one hand and doing a dance on the other!
While I'm so excited that dreams and goals I have thought about for so long in my life are actually happening. The daily struggle of figuring everything else is still quite daunting to me. I struggle for sure trying to be a mom all by myself. I struggle with the whole alone thing (that one more than I like to admit). So I think that is why I have taken to doing things I've always wanted to do. I've have found myself with quite a bit of time on my hands. My usual M.O. is to then increase the amount of junk I have on my plate. But I have finally learned that isn't effective and I'm sick of feeling stressed out. I like to exercise, still hate anything having to do with scrap booking (YUCK, would rather die!), I like to clean, but really how much of that can you do ALL the time? So my little house will be my project. And part of my little 2 year plan (yes I have those) is to have a horse! Oh and maybe I will throw a DNP in there sometime too ;-)
Well here is to self-discovery!
Lots of Love,
Cori
Thursday, January 19, 2012
1-19-2012
Look I'm updating the blog faster than last time. Probably because I have a lot of stuff going on. Today has been an amazing, amazing...did I say AMAZING day!!!
That is because I FINISHED MY MASTERS PROGRAM TODAY!!! I officially graduated and have my Master's degree in Nursing. Next I'm on to boards!!! Woo Hoo!!!
Next, I listed my house for sale today. Well I should say I signed the contract and it will be listed for sale tomorrow. I know this will come as a great shock to a lot of people. But it is something I have been contemplating even before Jeremie passed away. This house was our dream together. He adored building it and working on it and crying over it and creating his dream. I loved seeing him do it. But that dream is no longer for me. And as I figure out how to move through this life on my own, I have discovered that this home no longer holds what it did for me. Sadly, it hurts to walk through it. It needs to be someone else's dream.
So, Cori and her darling children, minus the eldest adult child (who informs his mother that he will be moving out in 3-4 weeks), will be working her very hardest to buy her little baby dream house in Parowan. I have dreamed, and wished and begged to live there for YEARS! And now I have found a way to make the wish and dream a reality. I've always been a small town girl. So not only will this fulfill a life long dream of mine, but it will greatly assist my financial means as well. I will be cutting down my expenses! Yay! I now don't feel the pressure to have to either get a second job or find another higher paying job. I will have greater peace knowing I can support my kids all by myself, comfortably.
And before we start the whining of "oh my gosh you are going to have to commute!" Let me just inform you all that I drove to Cedar for 3 solid years for work and for school. I like the drive. And I want to LOVE where I live. And FYI, I don't live for work. Oh and I'm not crazy or impulsive. I have thought about this long and hard. And yes, my children are excited as well. It is an adventure, and life is short. We are going forward.
So a HUGE stinking day for my little family and myself. I'm feeling excited about our future. I'm excited to be raising my kids how I have always envisioned. I'm so grateful for everything and everyone in my life. I can't believe the daily blessings that I have the opportunity of counting. I will miss the incredible people I have been surrounded by since building our home. I don't know what I would have done without them and our Ward. I wish I could just pack them up and bring them with me. They made Jeremie's dream even more of a reality with his house. Wow...amazing, amazing life we have been given.
Lots of Love...to all you amazing people...
Cori
That is because I FINISHED MY MASTERS PROGRAM TODAY!!! I officially graduated and have my Master's degree in Nursing. Next I'm on to boards!!! Woo Hoo!!!
Next, I listed my house for sale today. Well I should say I signed the contract and it will be listed for sale tomorrow. I know this will come as a great shock to a lot of people. But it is something I have been contemplating even before Jeremie passed away. This house was our dream together. He adored building it and working on it and crying over it and creating his dream. I loved seeing him do it. But that dream is no longer for me. And as I figure out how to move through this life on my own, I have discovered that this home no longer holds what it did for me. Sadly, it hurts to walk through it. It needs to be someone else's dream.
So, Cori and her darling children, minus the eldest adult child (who informs his mother that he will be moving out in 3-4 weeks), will be working her very hardest to buy her little baby dream house in Parowan. I have dreamed, and wished and begged to live there for YEARS! And now I have found a way to make the wish and dream a reality. I've always been a small town girl. So not only will this fulfill a life long dream of mine, but it will greatly assist my financial means as well. I will be cutting down my expenses! Yay! I now don't feel the pressure to have to either get a second job or find another higher paying job. I will have greater peace knowing I can support my kids all by myself, comfortably.
And before we start the whining of "oh my gosh you are going to have to commute!" Let me just inform you all that I drove to Cedar for 3 solid years for work and for school. I like the drive. And I want to LOVE where I live. And FYI, I don't live for work. Oh and I'm not crazy or impulsive. I have thought about this long and hard. And yes, my children are excited as well. It is an adventure, and life is short. We are going forward.
So a HUGE stinking day for my little family and myself. I'm feeling excited about our future. I'm excited to be raising my kids how I have always envisioned. I'm so grateful for everything and everyone in my life. I can't believe the daily blessings that I have the opportunity of counting. I will miss the incredible people I have been surrounded by since building our home. I don't know what I would have done without them and our Ward. I wish I could just pack them up and bring them with me. They made Jeremie's dream even more of a reality with his house. Wow...amazing, amazing life we have been given.
Lots of Love...to all you amazing people...
Cori
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