I like La La Land...it has been such a nice place to live in the last few weeks. So very scared of the reality that is going to be smacking us in the face on Monday. Sort of happy that Jeremie hasn't been having 3 times per week blood work. Don't have to micro-obsess about every stinking number.
Jeremie continues to look as fabulous as ever. I think it takes people by surprise :-) And scares me to death. There are parts in my heart that just can't take it anymore. I just want to pretend this was all a joke, and we just get to continue living our lives. I can't tell you what a reprieve it has been the last month. Just to have our Daddy all to ourselves. I forgot what it had been like to get so annoyed with him ;-) hee hee hee.
Whew...having a teary day. Getting nervous and anxious about going to California. I've never been to California. So that will be another adventure we get to share together. The kids are going to be staying behind. PePe and MeMe (Jeremie's parents) are super busy at the shop and need Alex. Scarlett and the boys have school, so they are choosing to sleep at home. I just can't stand being away and separating myself from either my husband or my babies. It stinks having to choose all the time. Yet I feel so blessed that the kids are older, pretty self sufficient (which I'm not appreciating), and have proven time and time again how responsible they are. But I've also told the neighbors to make sure my house doesn't burn down ;-) I think that helps!
It is funny...but I'm having the hardest time right now. I think about the last several months and felt I could move through all the various emotions and fear. And now I'm panicking?? What is up with that?? I think it is because of the unknown...it is a theory anyway. So if you hear of stories of me needing my own psychiatric help, you will know why ;-)
Please, continue your prayers! Especially over the next several days...we believe in miracles :-)
Love,
Cori
Cori and Jeremie...I will start with not only do I really believe in miracles...but I have been blessed to be a witness to many in my life time...I am a true believer! I have not stopped expecting a miracle and I think we have seen some already. Stay strong and lean on each other because your strength is in your unity. Remember the unknown is always scary but, not always bad. Know you both have been blessed with a strong love and faith...also with many friends and family praying for you and your family. Be at peace with your selves and your Creator and let your love carry you through. I am sending you both love and peace!
ReplyDeleteI am so proud of both of you in the way you are coping with the latest adventure in your life together. You guys have always had the love for each other that most people look for, you are an inspiration to us all. I think of you everyday and never stop praying. While in CA. try and have some fun and enjoy yourselves. If I can do anything please let me know. Sending you lots of love and happy thoughts. Be Safe :) Jolyn
ReplyDeleteyour in our hearts and our prayers, good luck tomorrow!
ReplyDeleteTrav and Steph