Well I guess I have to post this week. Most of you know by now that on July 23rd, 2011 at 11:55 p.m., my soul-mate, my love, my best friend and my eternal companion passed away.
My Jeremie...my Jeremie. I miss him terribly, yet feel him by me constantly. To be with him as he passed from this world into another existence was a beautiful and sacred experience. Jeremie is finally not suffering. He finally is at peace. And I like to think of the many things he might be experiencing now that he is not under the constraints of a physical body.
I've made myself quite ill from the last several days. I'm a dork and didn't eat or drink or go to the bathroom for 3 days. You think that I would have had the thought process of needing to feed and take care of basic needs. Amazing how those needs are unnoticed when you don't want to blink your eyes 'cause you might miss something.
Our family was with us this weekend. What a blessing to have everyone, all together. I think this is why Jeremie could go home, he said goodbye.
My sweet mother is staying with me this week as I attempt to prepare for Jeremie's funeral. What a blessing. See...sometimes I do know that I need help.
Jeremie's viewing will be on Friday, 07/29/2011 from 7-9 p.m. at our Stake Center, and the funeral will be on Saturday, 07/30/11 at 1 p.m., same Stake Center. Following the funeral there will be grave-side services in the Ivins City cemetery.
Washington Fields Stake Center
1297 S 3000 E
Washington, UT 84780
Obviously this is a time my sweet kids and myself are really struggling. I'm so grateful for the last year that I got to have with him. I'm grateful for the adventures that we have been able to share in our life. I'm sad because we wanted to do so much. But this life is short, and we aren't meant to be here for eternity. Somehow, some way, some time, I will understand why. Right now I'm just focusing on how he just doesn't hurt anymore. He loved his life, his children and he made me feel like a loved, beautiful princess everyday.
So his funeral arrangements have been made. There is some peace with having that finished. Next will be trying to duct-tape myself together, and keep myself together so that I may continue to live each day as he would have me live it. With intention.
Love you all...
Cori
heart and soul... u my friend are a true example to us all :))
ReplyDeleteMy husband and I attended the Peter Breinholt concert on Friday night where Peter dedicated "Fool in the Tavern" to Jeremie. It was very touching and in that moment I said a prayer for him and his family, never dreaming that it would only be hours later that he left this life.
ReplyDeleteWe've never met, but I hope it helps in some tiny way that a sister in the gospel has you in her heart and prayers this week. May the spirit comfort you and your children during this difficult time.
Love and prayers for your family. Thank you for sharing all of this. I am so happy I got you know Jeremie. What a talented man. May God bless you and your family.
ReplyDeleteLynn
There aren't any words, I am so sorry. I love you and I am always there if you need anything.
ReplyDeleteCori-
ReplyDeleteI know I haven't seen you since school... but since you've been my friend on FB. I have always had you and Jeremy in my thoughts. I think of how grateful I am to have my life and my family! You inspire me to be the best woman, mother, sister, aunt and wife I can be! You are such a strong woman with an amazing and beautiful spirit.. even though you have lost your soul mate, best friend and highschool sweetheart... at least you had the opportunity to have 5 beautiful children with such an amazing man. I don’t know much of him except from high school, but I do remember how sweet he was to you and how much I admired your relationship! You were meant for each other and thank goodness he had you by his side through all of his sickness.. you are ama strong woman and your kids need you more than ever. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family... love Tracie See
Cori and Family,
ReplyDeleteWhile I am glad Jeremie isn't hurting anymore, my heart is breaking for all of you - you, Jeremie, and the kids (and everyone else who love him). I know life's not fair, but I want it to be.
What a beautiful memoir this is to your soul mate...
Maren