It has been a couple of weeks since I last decided to write on "The Blog". It has been sort of stretching for me over the last several weeks. And I'm not thinking this is a bad thing. Well at least right now I'm not thinking it is a bad thing ;-)
I will hopefully be taking my Comprehensive Exam in the next couple of weeks. I'm hoping by December 14th to officially have my MSN. I'm of course sick of studying, but oh well, got to just get it done. It is terrible, I downloaded my review CD on my I-Phone, not the smartest thing I have ever done. I keep getting distracted by my songs, which I switch to while I'm trying to figure out what I listened to last. I can figure out all kinds of ways not to study.
We went to Seattle for Thanksgiving to see my bestest buddy and her sweet family. It was quite an adventure with 5 children and flying. It was their first time flying! Serious adventure! It went pretty slick though. Lil' Jeremie was a bit freaked out at first about the whole security thing, getting on the plane and taking off. But ended up doing quite well. Seattle was beautiful. The ocean was quite mind opening for me. The whole trip sort of changed my whole perspective on my life.
I had several epiphanies...which I'm not quite sure I'm ready to go into here. But there will come a time ;-)
I have definitely felt Jeremie close to me. And I'm feeling more confident in myself, and my ability to be myself again. I'm finally feeling like I'm moving in some sort of direction. I'm not so paranoid anymore that it is even the wrong direction. The staying still, the not progressing, the not moving forward or not making mistakes is not what my life is about.
The last several weeks have been mind and body changing for me. I have laughed so hard I have cried. I have felt excitement and had loads of fun. It feels good to have those fun emotions again. I'm not going to say it has been easy by any means. At times it has been so anxiety producing I have difficulty in controlling the shaking my body seems to do when I'm scared out of my mind. BUT I'm learning to embrace this!!! I haven't regretted it! Not a single time! So I'm stretching and growing.
I can say that I'm happy. And it doesn't break my heart to feel that way. I think about this last year, and I don't know how we all did it. But we did, and we are all better for it. We are so strong, and love each other so much, and don't want to take a single day for granted. I love the life that Jeremie and I worked so hard to build, and this last week I was reminded why we worked so hard for it. I'm so grateful, so so so grateful for this sweet gift he left me.
Well that is sort of the gist of our lives at the moment. I'm actually okay. Kids are okay. We are okay. Does that mean we don't have our challenges? Duh...of course not! But life is short, move on. Breathe, soak in the tub and buy new sweat pants! Key to happiness ;-)
Lots of Love...
Cori
